No enough time to say goodbye

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2010-02-18 at 14:02分类:情感宣泄

1.27 —— 2.17 , I think it is time to end .

Keep that in mind , I designed this rhyme .
To remind myself how and to explain in due time .

before 1.27

You and I , holding tight .
You and I , gotta fight .
You and I , side by side .
You and I , say good-bye .
You and I , for the rest of our lives .
No truths to confirm , no lies to deny .


When this began , I had nothing to say .
And I’d get lost in the nothingness inside of me .
I was confused .
It’s so unreal . Didn’t look out below .
I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart .
I had to fall to lose it all .


And I let it all out to find that I’m not the only person with these things in mind .
Inside of me but all the vacancy , the words revealed is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel .
Nothing to lose . Just stuck , hollow and alone .
And the fault is my own .


Time is a valuable thing .
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings .
Watch it count down to the end of the day .
The clock ticks life away .
So let mercy come and wash away…
What I’ve done , I’ll face myself .
To cross out what I’ve become , erase myself .
And let go of what I’ve done .
For what I’ve done , I start again .
And whatever pain may come .
Today this ends , forgiving what I’ve done .


This is my february .
This is my time of the year .
This is my february .
This is all so clear .
This is my february .
This is my snow covered home .
This is my february .
This is me alone .
And I just wish that I didn’t feel like there was something I missed .
And I’d give it all away just to have somewhere to go to .
This is me pretending .
This is all I need .
Everything you say to me take’s me one step closer to the edge .
And I’m about to break I need a little room to pray .
Cause I’m one step closer to the edge .
And I’m about to break .
I’ve found the answers aren’t so clear .
Wish I could find a way to disappear .


The memory now is like the picture was then when the paper’s crumpled up it can’t be perfect again .
I close both locks below the window .
I close both blinds and turn away .
And each regret and each divide was some mistake too great to hide .
Somewhere I belong .


Doubt in your faith .
What am I leaving when I’m done here ?
So if you’re asking me , I want you to know .
Don’t resent me , and when you’re feeling empty .
I’ve taken my beating , I’ve shared what I made .
I’ve never been perfect , but neither have you .
Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well .
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself .
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know .
Sometimes solutions aren’t so simple .
Sometimes goodbye is the only way .
Somehow I need to be alone .
Don’t stay .
Forget our memories .
Forget our possibilities .
Take all your faithlessness with you .


What you were changing me into .
Just give me myself back .
To just believe this is real so I let go of watching you .
Face away and pretend that I’m not .
Time won’t heal this damage anymore .


Wake in a sweat again , another day’s been laid to waste .
In my disgrace , I’m my own worst enemy .
Take this all away , I’m suffocating .
Tell me what the fuck is wrong with me ?
I wanna find something I wanted all along .


Let me take back my life .
I’d rather be all alone .
No, no turning back now .
Things aren’t the way they were before .
You wouldn’t even recognise me anymore not that you knew me back then .
But it all comes back to me , I kept everything inside .
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when .
I’ll never fight again , and this is how it ends .


No, no more sorrow .
Your time is borrowed .
Your time has come to be released .
Face it , hypocrite !
I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there .
I’ve become so tired so much more aware .
I’ve becoming this all I want to do .
Is be more like me and be less like you .
Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me , and I know Star may end up failing too .


I remembered each flash as time began to blur .
There was nothing inside, the memories left abandoned .
Did I get what I deserve ?
Let it be enough to reach the truth realized , across this new divide .

2.7 —— right now

As the last ship sailed towards the distant horizon , I sat there watching on a rock .
My mind slowly drifting away forming into my… dreamtale .